How to Deal is on.
It's exciting.
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c'est la vie, mes amis.

Today was an amazing day.

Bomb threat. Drivers ed. Talent show auditions tomorrow. It's been an eventful week.

Bootstrap Bill Turner is underrated.

10 months to go.

8 1/2 hours.

If you're not in the mood to read an emotional entry about friendship, then skip over this.

I've been listening to this song on repeat for the past 10 minutes, and everytime I watch the video I start to cry. I love it. I love the message that it conveys. It's so fucking beautiful. You realize how much you take advantage of your friends, in the aspect of them always being there. You have to appreciate them. You have to respect them. I love my friends, my three best friends especially. I love everything about them, and I wouldn't change anything for the world. They're always there for me somehow, and I've grown accustomed to having at least one of them to fall back on. These are the people that I'm positive I'm going to love for the rest of my life. I already have that assurance. I'm lucky enough to have that. We each hate something in ourselves, but we're able to find peace and happiness in each other. We're able to see ourselves in each other. That's what makes us so close. We're predictable. We may not always understand each other, but we try. We try. I may not have riches, or good looks, or outstanding grades, but I have the best friends that anyone could ever ask for. I feel safe with them. They respect me, they love me, they tolerate me my strange fandoms, they are me, so I have to thank them for that. I love you guys more than anything else in the world. I need you to know that. I'm never going to leave you alone. Whether you're at your mom's house, in another state, or doing something stupid with other friends, I am always going to be here for you and with you. None of us want to be alone anymore, so I won't let us. We have each other. We've changed so much. I've changed so much because of you. You guys saw me when I was invisible [I didn't steal that from The Princess Diaries.]  In two years we'll be going to college, and I don't know if it'll be together. I will never meet people like you again. I will never forget the memories we made. They're so many of them in my head that I want to cry just thinking about it. I love you guys more than I can physically handle. I'm overcome with so much strange emotion right now. You are the only true loves I have ever known, and I don't ever want it to end. I'm going to enjoy it while we still can.

I am extremely confused.

Julie's party was amazing. I tried to danced, sang, ate food, spun around in circles with David and Marilynn like in Titanic, and played musical chairs. Julie's a sweetheart. I'm really glad she invited me. Miles Sontag asked me a strange question that, at the time, I was unable to answer. I don't know why. It freaked me the shit out. Luckily, Marilynn had just come over and answered in my place.

Jeanne fucking KOONTZ called my mom on the way home, lied about leaving a message, said she could warm me up at 1, and kept talking about how I'd make it since my song/voice was so good. She doesn't even know which song I'm singing. I bet she doesn't even remember the one I considered last week. Stupid old hag. -rant-

Apparently Paulie got her freak on tonight. rofl. Idk if she was joking, but her lovely text messages about her boyfriend's penis scared Elvis. Speaking of Elvis, we hung out a lot tonight. It was nice. He's the coolest gay guy ever. Since Julie's party was at the country club, and everyone was dressed up, I felt like I was at a party in Sex & the City.

Auditions and Brittany's party tomorrow. ♥

OH MY GOD. EVERYONE'S LEAVING.

Tim Martin Gleason's departure from Broadway April 1. Gary and Beth's final US Tour performance tonight. Sandra Joseph's final Broadway performance coming up on April 15.

SANDRA JOSEPH IS ONE OF THE BEST CHRISTINE'S I HAVE EVER SEEN. SHE'S NOT ALLOWED TO LEAVE. GOD DAMNIT! GARY IS AMAZING. HE CAN'T LEAVE EITHER OFHdskfjsdlk!!!!!!!

Reading Rent fanfictions is never a good thing. I'm literally bawling and thanking God that none of my friends have aids. Angel is the most amazing character. I wish I could be as positive as her.

God, this is so depressing that I want to die, but that defeats the moral of the story.

Holy Christcakes, I have amazing friends.

xo Police Line: I let Dana listen to you singing on my iPOD this morning..
xo Police Line: This was our conversation.
xo Police Line: "..Wow, she's really good?"
xo Police Line: "What's her name?"
xo Police Line: "Christine Daae......"
xo Police Line: "..Like, Emmy Rossum?"
xo Police Line: "No like. . -points at self- 'Christine Daae.'"
xo Police Line: "..............-FINALLY GETS IT- Oh, she's got pipes."

rofl. ♥

Rehersals were great.

Amber is so cool. Really. She's like Paulie and Brittany combined. AND SHE LOVES PHANTOM OF THE OPERA. She played in Guys & Dolls. I almost died when I said, "Good times" and she replied "Great oldies". . . "...OLDIES 96 POINT FIIIIIIVE." Yeaaah. BRITTANY ILYKTHNXBI. So. Jeanne had me try out for the role of Isabelle, which is kind of like a Christine-esque character, in some ways. I can tell you, with no acting experience, I did really good. Jeanne said even I surprised her, in a good way. These hicks were just reading the paper, and not putting any emotion into it.

It was a love scene. I thought about the end of Phantom of the Opera, and 5 seconds later, I was sobbing and grasping on to the guy. It was an amazing feeling.

So pretty much, I've probably got a shot. I hope I get it. Really, if you saw the other people, you would laugh. The biggest rednecks. I was laughing on the inside. Jeanne had me and this guy stay back to perform it again, so I think that means something.

It better. If I lose to a hick, I will be severly offended. rofl.

Amber and I are the lead/stronger sopranos. Everyone else was like "WhOa u gUyZ r So0o0 GooD1!1" There's a really good 12 year old, too.. oh, and this adorable little 7 year old! She's so precious. Mmhmm!

It starts either the 15th, or the 22nd of November. I don't remember if she said the week of, or the week before. It's 10 dollars for adults, 8 for seniors, and 6 for students. If you want tickets, let me know and I'll hook you up.

Visual effects to show how I feel.

( Have you gorged yourself at last in your lust for blood? )

I, myself like to have casual sex with rabid squirrels and squash. I have squeezed a watermelon, in it's entirety, into my vagina. It still has yet to be found. I enjoy the clitoris. My lesbian gorilla Jap lover Susy finds that she likes to masturbate to Mr. Roger's Neighborhood. Jesus has snails sprouting from his testicals. Run, nigger/Nigeria, before the deathly liger eats your soul through a bendy straw. The Nazis stole our artichoke Jello. Ever wonder why you don't see it anymore?

Bye.